Why did I start blogging?
Mental Health, Writing
Why did I start blogging?

A year and change ago I had an idea – I was going to create a blog.  Genius! I know.  Well, I was in an emotional state – in dire need of money and I’ve been watching various other blogs “make it big with money” so I thought … why not me?

A year and some change ago I decided to create a blog.  It was the best and sometimes the worst decision so far.  Now, don’t get me wrong – I love blogging.  But I feel like I have a lot of love/hate relationships with it.

I was naive to think that I could 1. Make any kind of money right off the back as well as 2. Find people who would simply enjoy my day to day rambles.

Plus off the fact was that I really had no focus nor niche as one would say.  I had an idea and I took that idea and ran towards the hills with it.

Why did I start blogging?
I’ve asked myself this question a lot.

I stumbled a lot

Originally I was going to produce a lot of Pinterest fails in cooking, DIY, and other things… but yeah that never happened.  I couldn’t find my camera as well as I didn’t have any extra money to spend on the startup costs.

Which, was okay because it gave me time to get my shit (so to speak – sorry for the language) and figure out just what I was going to be doing.

I’m not that funny (well besides my own mind) and I stink as a storyteller.  Plus off – I couldn’t find the battery for my camera.  So that option was out.

It just changed one day

Then out of the blue, there was a fluid like change.  It was gently turning the writing and giving it a focal point.  Started to write about my day to day experiences dealing with my own mental health.

I talked about going through anxiety – dealing with it as well as when I’ve had some bad days I’ve talked about those too.  I know I haven’t written much about my depression.  That’s a lone wolf that sometimes I’m too scared to poke at.

You see – depression (for me) has always just been there.  Just seeping under the surface of things and showing its ugly head when I’m already anxious.

Not many people talk about mental health

It still feels very much like a stigma at times.  We don’t talk about it – or show that we deal with it.  We all get anxious at times or feel sad.  But, there are those that constantly deal with those challenges and still rise above it.

I’m still scared to talk about some of my darkest days – the times that I was put in the hospital for self-injury or when I took too many pills with a whole bottle of vodka.  (I still to this day can’t handle vodka that well – too many bad memories.)

Why did I start blogging?
What could I do for others?

So, why did I start blogging?

In the end of it all, I wanted to find a voice.  I constantly deal with social anxiety – or general anxiety and because of that, I end up living a lot of my life in my head.  Blogging in a way was being used to find people who went through and are going through what I went through.

I think the most particular point is that I want to not be scared anymore – I want to share with you all my side.  I want someone to not look at me with pity because I still have the scars today.

No, I want my story to show and for people to be aware so that perhaps one day – they could save another who is going through what I went through.

I started blogging

To share with the world that mental health is important.  You shouldn’t look at someone who deals with Bi-polar, depression, anxiety, eating disorders or any other disorder out there like they are broken.

I’m not broken.  I never was – I just function on a different level than most people do.

It took me a while, but I think I’ve found my own way.  I’m happy and the depression only hits a quarter of as strong as it used to.

I’m not broken.  I deal with severe anxiety and depression, but that is not what makes me – me.

Why have you started blogging? Or if you don’t – why would you start?

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  • I love it – it is so important to reflect back on our real intentions for blogging. With such a saturated community out there, it is easy to lose sight about your real purpose for blogging.

    Abby of Life in the Fash Lane

    • Yes! It is far too easy to lose the sight for a genuine purpose. I know that I may switch it up a bit but I hope that I won’t lose it.

      Thanks for encouragement. Hope you have a fantastic day.

  • Raluca Lo

    I really enjoyed reading about the reason why you started blogging! Sometimes people have unrealistic expectations about blogging and forget about the things that really matter about it!

    • I will be honest – I was naive in blogging. I didn’t know all the work that really went into it…
      Glad that I continued because I am really starting to find myself and I hope my own community.

  • Hey! How have you been? I’m back to blogging (sort of, again). I missed reading your posts SO much but I needed a time off from blogging so bad. I should warn you about comment spam because I’ll be marathoning your posts starting RIGHT NOW.

    It is so important to spread mental health awareness. But honestly, I think it makes someone such a strong person to be able to speak aloud and open up about it. I had no idea that it was the reason why you got into blogging. I just noticed all the posts that you’ve written / linked to. I wouldn’t know how hard it must be to talk about your anxiety or depression. But I’ve just begun to admire your strength and spirit even more to share it online. <3

    Love, Somdyuti | One Tiny Wish

    • Thank you so much Somdyuti. I just saw that you started back up blogging. Cannot wait to read what else you post. You had a lot on your plate so it’s understandable to take a break for your own well being. No one would count that against you.

      Thanks – I’m getting there. It’s been a long battle, but I know that I’m finally becoming okay in my own skin. Cheers. Comment away if you want. I enjoy reading your comments. They mean so much to me.

  • Rebecca Ellis

    It’s really intriguing to see how everyone starts out and why. I actually started writing at the beginning of January, because I felt like I needed somewhere to jot down all my creative ideas. I can remember studying Journalism as a GCSE and one of my pieces actually made it into the local newspaper, I feel like that was a major milestone for me and I haven’t been able to stop writing since. x

    http://www.sheintheknow.co.uk

  • I am so glad you wrote about you getting started. I started so long ago that it’s hard to pinpoint the whys. I just do it out of habit.

    I get the change and I am happy you write about the hard topics. Though going through mental health issues sucks balls. Not being alone and breaking the stigma is important.

    • So true. Being alone stinks, but with the powers of the internets – we can continue to fight and slowly the stigma of it will fade away.

  • I love reading the stories of other bloggers on how they found their way to blogging in the first place. I love reading those posts about mental health and I love your honesty! It’s so refreshing amongst all this competition! Keep up the good work, girl! xxx